Green.

With a trembling hand I reach and speak your name

With a whisper so soft the word resounds

Your beautiful name 

But will this whisper be enough

If I hum it to myself

Through the window, tired eyes will come to pass

Still I hum it to myself, alone.

Is it enough to get by, enough to survive in here?

Bottle it all up, keep my mouth shut in here?

Cause its so hard to love and its so hard to trust how you would

God I’m so terrified of you leading me to that door

Yet here I am, I see that door

In whispering your name once more

I wasn’t ready for this

I didn’t come running, I wasn’t halfway

Hands stretched out wide, “Here I am, send me!”

But that wasn’t me, I was the coward

All I swore not to be

But is it enough to get by, enough to survive in here?

To bottle it up, keep my mouth shut in here?